FUCK! I'M FUCKING PISSED NOW. OUR PARENTS CAN'T DECIDE WHAT WE WANT TO DO. IT'S JUST SO UNFAIR! I DON'T WANT TO GIVE UP. I THINK IT'S FUCKING UNFAIR.

Baby, I know you didn't want to make this decision. But you did. I understand. So don't blame yourself. You're not to be blamed, neither am I. I know things are rocky between us for the past few days. But this time, it's just unfair. I think your mum went overboard, so did my mum. I understand how your mum felt, but I just think that it's unfair. I won't give up. Beacause I hadmade a promise. A promise that I will never forget. I'm hurt, I'm lost. I'm sad, I'm pissed. These feelings just overwhelm me. I'm tearing now as I'm typing. You're the first girl that I have really taken seriously and loved. Endured and treasured. That's why I had never given up. I know you care for me. You don't want any trouble for me. If only we hadn't kept our reasons inside of us, things would have been better. Arguements wouldn't be there because of some minute things.

You once said that you wanted to be my pillar of strength. You are. Because whenever you're upset or not there, I'm lost. I have no source of motivation. I don't feel like doing anything at all. I won't feel like studying, eating, drinking, talking or even skating. I have no true friends. I have always relied on myself, until you came into my life. I treated you like my everything. That's why I was so possessive. I was afraid to lose you. I tried to let go, but I can't. Somehow, it's just you that I longed for. Your voice, your touch are missing.

I hope things would be better soon. I really do. And finally, I would like to tell you that I still love you, and would still keep my promises, till I die.

PS: I apologise on behalf for my mum for whatever things she had said. She was only defending herself and me. She loves me, I know. Those things she said about you were untrue. She was just pissed, so she said those things to counter the points your mum said.

For those who know me, sorry for the vulgar language used. You all should know that I hardly swear unless things are really bad.